The Big Day

credits to Wai Teng ♥ 

I am finally sixteen! :) This blogpost should be up like weeks ago but for a talented procrastinator like me, its up like now hehe.

Memorable, indelible, awesome, fantastic, fun.  No word can actually be used to describe it as its like a mixture of all the best feelings. Had this birthday celebration in Sushi Zento, a new Japanese cuisine in town.  It has this cool and sophisticated deco, all black and mysterious.  The food here was awesome, delicious and they come in huge portions, so if you plan to eat little, you better share it with someone :)

The celebration was filled with noise and laughter. Especially from my bunch of close friends.  Nothing beats having all your closest friends with you, celebrating your Sweet Sixteen with you :) Anyway enough of typing and time for pictures :)

With the darling ♥ 

With the awesome desk mate ♥ 

With the FaceTime mate, Eewen ♥ 

With Yesh, the ex desk mate and awesome friend ♥ 

With foojingyi ♥ 

The loved ones ♥ 

With the genius, Shu Wei  ♥ 

Pretty sabfoo ♥ 

Yanyee and Amy ♥ 

Shuyin ♥ 

Jingee ♥ 

 

Mingyan   ♥ 

Waitengg ♥ 

Group pictures :)

Fungxin, again  ♥ 

Tan ♥  

With the special guests, Eewei and Wenyen ♥

Sweet 16th Birthday Bash. ♥

(Not in picture, Cheralyn and Liew Jo Yi)

December Pink

Started a shared online store with my sister today! :D

We sell mainly accessories to spice up your wardrobe and outfits! :)

Link to the awesome fashion store: December Pink <3

Give us a like and share the page if you don't mind! Feel free to look at the items there too!:)

XOXO

Stupidity

I cannot believe what I did during the trip the other day, the thoughts, the happiness, the joy, the fun.  When it came to an end, I had this feeling to never let go and was kind of down and all but after knowing that person better, I feel this is all wrong but yet I just let it be as it is without clearing things up.

What am i doing? Is this what they call the nature of human beings or is it just me?  Is this what they call stupidity?  It flows in my veins and it kills me most of the times but i just allow it to.  Should I stop it all or should I let it as it is? 

Sometimes I feel that it is all wrong like totally but yet i still continue to see what happens.  Curiosity kills.  I really want to know what would happen if i make those choices and what would not happen if i didnt.  I think i would just go with the flow and see how things turn out.

I used to think the quote, 'nothing is impossible' is just something used to motivate people but some things ARE impossible.  I keep thinking that it was impossible to keep in touch until after the trip and all those things that happened i realised it's possible alright.

Now i am at a loss.  It will all clear out soon I am sure :) So I will let it as it is now. Go with the flow, they say, and hence i will.

XOXO

Birthday week (Part 2) ~ Short trip to Kuala Lumpur

Planned to have Eewen over for a sleepover but plan failed. :( Mum woke me up on the morning just to ask me to join her on this short trip to Kuala Lumpur, the capital of Malaysia. She booked the hotel and everything and and finally we are staying at The Gardens Residences after so longgg. I missed it so much. Its like so convenient, when I'm tired i can go and rest, when i feel like looking at pretty new stuff i can go downstairs and shop! :)

Dad has some work to do so we ended up in Pavilion. We looked around and landed ourselves in Tony Roma's steak house. I ordered the Filet Medallions while mum ordered the Steak & Wild Mushroom Flatbread and sis, oh well, something like mine but with extra Salmon Picatta :) We were like sooo full after this meal. And decided to go walk around, saw plenty of stuff but didn't buy any, guess my shopaholic disease receded :P

In Tony Roma's

Dad picked us up and checked in at the hotel and we went up for a short rest and showered and all. :) Thennnn dad said he has to go out again to meet some people so mummy decided to walk around The Gardens Mall. Saw this really pretty dresssss but too bad its too big for me :( It has this really beautiful shade of blue with a very nice design, gosh just talking about it makes me feel down.

In the room in the apartment :)

Then after an hour of aimless walking, mum decided to go eat again lol. This time at a Korean cuisine restaurant. I was still full from lunch, but someone like me, obviously couldn't resist food XD Returned to the hotel after a day of Food Marathon, BUT its not over yet :P

At GoGung Korean Cuisine :)

On thursday, woke up and went down for brunch at My Toast at 11pm. Ate nasi lemak and Kaya Butter Toast. LOL this was actually unintentional, Dad ordered the nasi lemak and offered me some and it was too delicious i ended up eating the whole plate of it as Dad said he was still full from the previous breakfast he had with one of his employees.

Walked to Mid Valley and window shopped and realized its 2pm already so mum suggested to have lunch at this Taiwanese cuisine before going back to Ipoh. So we ate again. Yummmyyy! hehehe then we walked around to help with digestion then, saw this GongCha shop and dad asked me if i wanted to try, of course i do! So drank another cup of Gongcha. -.- GongCha is almost like Chatime, i don't really feel any difference, but i have yet to try other flavors of drinks there though :)

Finally Mum said the Food Marathon is over and we should head back to Ipoh, and hence this marks the end of the short trip to Kuala Lumpur :)

XOXO

Birthday week :) (Part 1)

I am officially turning sixteen soon :) like in umm two days. So what have i been doing since i haven't blogged for ages. I have been traveling, a lot this year. Time flies so here i am after ages blogging. I haven't really uploaded all the pictures from the recent travels since there was two cameras and two phones used to capture all the memories.

So what am i going to update today? As i said my birthday is coming, and and its on 21st December, the rumored DOOMSDAY. So how am i celebrating, and how do i feel? I can't deny for sure it wouldn't happen, but I'm not afraid of it.  If it happens, it will. So why waste life and time that worrying what might happen? It might happen on any day so are we going to live life in fear for the rest of our lives?

Anyway back to what happened this week.  Spent my Tuesday afternoon with Eewei. Watched this awesome cartoon movie, The Rise of the Guardians.  It is really not a kiddo thing, it is like real and 3D.  Movie summary: It is about the guardians ( Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, Sandman, Tooth Fairy and Jack Frost) trying to save the children from the legendary Boogeyman.  It has a very good storyline. and Jack Frost is super duper handsome in it. I am not going to blog much about the movie cause I'm not a very literature-inclined person, with all the themes, moral values all. XD

After the movie, we had lunch in a Chinese place, it was reasonable and the food was up to standard too :) Went home after a long day and tried to get as much beauty sleep as possible.

Since today is just Wednesday, I am going to update about today and tomorrow in my next blogpost :)

18/12/2012

XOXO

My little Jo Wei :)

Dearest Jo Wei,

Words can hardly describe how awesome you are.  How important you are to me, how precious.  You are like my soulmate, there is no need for words for you to understand me, to know what I'm thinking, it's almost like.. telepathy.

You play an important role in my life, moulding me into who I am today.  You are almost like my mirror, seeing myself in you partially, though i admit i can be quite crazy and hyper sometimes :P

Anyway, I bet you know how i feel.  There is no need for me to say more, if you do want me to say more, i can tell you everyday, I love you. ❤

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! :)

❤ XOXO ❤

Tree of dreams

So its the start of the annual year end holidays. Which brings the meaning, my form four life has ended, and i would be moving on to something more serious and important next year, the scary SPM.  So anyway i just watched this inspirational video on YouTube and wish to share it with you guys :) Enjoy.

XOXO

In a state of shock

Okay, when i said i no longer care, that's just to protect myself from getting hurt.  And i finally did it until... ugh, why can't things go as planned?  I just hate to have my plans changed, and now?  It has returned to the initial state which i hope to have erased.  I can't believe what i saw this morning, and it is definitely not my aim to wake up to see such things.

Reality hurts, that's what i hear from plenty of people.  I should have just continued dreaming in dreamland rather than seeing what i saw.  I can't believe i missed out again and now what i see is... ugh i can't even bring myself to say what i saw.

I just don't understand what goes about in your head, i would really like to know though.  This has brought me nowhere and i am still getting frustrated for no reason.  If you were to know, i bet you think i am really crazy like how i really am. :) I may have did certain things wrongly in the past but now, the blame is no longer on me.  I can't believe i am so stupid to ever blame myself for it.

Wake up joyi.  Yes i should.  I used to wonder all sorts of possibilities but now, they are no longer of use.  Its all over, another nightmare of mine is gone, well i hope.  Thoughts and images has been haunting me day and night, night and day.  Just last night, i had the weirdest dream ever.  I can't believe i dreamt of it againnnn.  Please would you stop haunting me and let me sleep and carry out my daily activities in peace.  Maybe what i wish now would make me regret, just please if you do not care, just stop haunting me.

Sometimes, i wonder if i have the so called 'true confidence' when it comes to these type of things, well i don't think so.  Though i have people who care for me more than i ever wanted, and i should feel grateful, i must admit i am just another greedy person. I tend to care for those who cares for me and those who don't, especially those who don't and end up feeling all hurt and well, thats who i am.  I am no different than you.  I am a normal person after all, no superwoman.  Though i am trying really hard to overcome these feelings of mine, there are days like today when i realize the truth once more and over think again.

I should probably stop thinking about it and make people who care get all worried about what happened.  Nothing did :)  That's what happened. Nothing, and here i am getting all tensed up when nothing happened.  How stupid of me. Pfft.  Well, busy day ahead of me, and i hope to get through today with a smile of my face :) and heal as quickly as possible well, i feel so much better blogging all this out.

So, tata.

XOXO

Miss MGS

It has been a year, officially.  2nd November 2011, a memorable day indeed.  Though hectic, it was really exciting and overwhelming.  Running around, changing as fast as possible without a changing room and my assistants, Fungxin and Kamen were so helpful and awesome!  The outfit search, the rehearsals for my performance, the help i got from various people, the support from my friends, ah its all still vivid in my mind.

Let's start from where it all started.  After PMR, my friends and i were given the list of competitions and the highlight of the whole after PMR activities was of course the annual Miss MGS competition.  I like everyone else, anticipated for it and was wondering who'd be chosen to represent my class, 3 Hornbill.

And suddenly i saw my name on the whiteboard, and they all agreed so i joined since it might be fun and i could gain new experience :)  I told my ballet teacher about it and she was so sweet to help me think up a dance for my talent time competition.  She even lent me some accessories to go with my dress.

Next, time for the gown search or dress search.  So, the theme was Glamour and Glitter.  Visited a few boutiques round town and tried several gowns, and finally found one.  Its a purple one, just plain purple.

Finally the day arrived, and i arrived to school late haha.  Was nervous the night before but managed to get a few hours of beauty sleep though :) Went into class and was greeted by my excited friends who made me more nervous haha.  I brought like two huge bags to place my tutu and also my gown and shoes, it was indeed a tough one to carry it into school.

The feeling on stage, and the everlasting cheers from the crowd, especially 3 Hornbill made me feel overwhelmed and forget all my nervousness.  Without them, I would never have made it by myself.  Being crowned and announced as Miss MGS 2011, was more than what i wanted, which was experience.  This whole event changed my point of view on life, and my life even.  I have been yet moulded into a better person.

It has been a year now, and the time of the year arrived just two days ago.  I was invited to crown the new Miss MGS 2012, Melissa Tan.  Witnessing the whole event at the side of the stage brought all the memories back to me.  Time flies.  And now i have learned another value, Cherish time well :)

Thank you jowei for making this vid for me <3

XOXO

Temptations

Temptation. Temptation is a word that no one can truly describe, and appears in lives of every individual.  That's what i wrote for my english essay and now, i am going to blog about it.

Temptations are really hard to resist and if you are not careful you will probably surrender, which is what i always do.  I know what i am doing might be wrong, but this tiny voice inside my head keeps asking me to go for it.  And hence when i do, i do not know what might be the possible outcome of it. I might be going on this trail where i will end up being alone in the dark, all alone. However, I might also  end up in paradise, where birds soar freely and everything is colorful.

What i am doing or feeling, i no longer know.  It is a foreign feeling and this feeling has invaded my mind and also my heart.  It is weird which makes me real curious to discover what it really means, though i know i might end up being all wounded or worse.

Hasty decisions. When i first knew of it, i hesitated and when people advised me to go for it, i went for it without thinking twice.  Now i don't know if this is a feeling of regret or just a mere disappointment.  I am now lost in this dark dark place.

I wonder if i can survive through this, of course i can, but it's a just a choice whether if i want to or do i want to be stuck here in this place since it is so weird and new to me. Do i want to discover more about it?  Curiosity kills.  Ugh.

I guess it is really time for me to leave this case for now.  I knew you were trouble.

P.S. Blogging this out reminds me of my essay, which of course i did not write like this. I probably crapped much? aiks, joyi, stop thinking about exams will you? ><

XOXO

Life

It is such a miracle to see new born babies hop out from their mother's womb after being in there for ages.  It is so magical to see a solid cute moving creature you call a baby moving her arms and legs, stretching out and trying to move, since she is still new to this entire human world.

On 8 October 2012, my niece joined the family.  She is so cute and chubby, causing me to melt just by looking through her pictures on Facebook.  Her name is Calleigh Lai Kar Ann. <3 I am sure she will grow up to be this really pretty little girl or adult.  I can't wait to see her grown up and all. :') omg i am such a great auntie hahaha.  those who will plan for their nieces and all LOL and i am just sixteen years older than her? aih auntie instincts just came to me. :P  can't help it HAHA

So now to the pictures,

Ah why you so cute?

<3

Cuteness overflowing everywhere >< She is just TOO cute.  Her mouth, so cute! ahhh and her eyes, hehehe

XOXO

P.S. better leave now, auntie JOYI JIEJIE going crazy :P

Forgotten

Being forgotten is one of the worst feelings ever.  One instant you are in this one person's life, knowing everything and another you are just hanging there on your own without a place to hold on.  Falling from up high, of course it is going to hurt a lot.

I do not exist anymore in your life, thats all. :)  I learned to be optimistic through some people.  I can't believe this is another case which proved to me that my senses are totally wrong.  How can i think you would be such a person?  You couldn't care less.

I shouldn't even be wasting time blogging about you.  But i am just learning from experience, I finally got my senses right.  You do not care from the start.  I don't know why you made me feel like you do.  I don't know why you did all that.  It just kills me more to see what happened these days.

The past is the past.  Therefore i shall look forward to a new day :)  And plan a better future! :)  I know i can, just stand up and be strong.  However the strongest people are sometimes the weakest inside. I will try to be as strong as i can :)

New day new hopes new beginnings

XOXO

Ups and Downs

In life, there are ups and downs which will cause deep memories.  Tonight is just one of those nights.  Problems registering themselves one by one, killing me a little more and scarring my fragile heart.  Can i not tend to all these problems and live solitarily?  The answer is no.

I just could not stop the tears from pouring down, its like raining cats and dogs now.  And i can't stop em.  I really hope it fades with the passage of time and never let me remember tonight, please.  Can i wake up and discover all these a huge and ugly nightmare and go back to my usual self?  The answer is probably no again?

It hurts so much to hear those words from you.  The three words that I would never expect to hear from you to me.  It hurts so much to remember the way you said it.  It hurts so much to know that it is a slip of the tongue.  It hurts so much you did not even bother to apologize after.  It hurts incredibly to know that I am what you said.  What do you mean?  Am i not supposed to be in this cruel human world?

And yet, to claim you as my hero, its all wrong.  Why am i so naive and think you would really love me?  Why am i so naive to think that you are doing all this for me, and for me only?  "Love was massaged onto me, and the fragrance could be smelled miles away"?  How stupid is that? Pfft.

I defended you when people looked down on you, but i guess i was wrong all this while?  Why must you say it out loud?  My heart is now in pieces and i just couldnt find a glue strong enough to stick them together.  It is broken completely.

Not to mention the tremendous stress i have on all my upcoming exams.  it just all have to be perfect, if not, near to perfection.  I admit i am a perfectionist and will get really mad when things don't go my way.  I am born this way and i tried my best to change my views on thinking.

Focusing isn't my forte.  And so are my turns.  Though i tried really hard to spot, i seem to always look elsewhere in the end.  And ballet is my partial life since i have been living it since three? four? Please don't hurt me since i tried my very best to embrace you.  People might say that my steps aren't as good as others but who cares? I just try to be better than myself :)

My eyes are now puffed up and all ruddy from the immense crying just now and i still can't stop the tap from flowing though.  Should I forgive and forget?  It isn't as easy as people say it is.  Should i completely forget who you are as well?  Since you forgot me and i no longer exist in your life.  Should i really let it all go?  Should i even be that good?  I know i don't usually get angry at stuff and wouldn't scold people but that doesn't mean i don't okay?  If i do, whoever you are, are in deep trouble.


If only it were all a dream... a nightmare... a horrible story....

Happy Midautumn Festival! :)

Colourful lanterns everywhere.  The bright smiles on the children's faces.  It is the time of the year where children have their dreams come true with their favorite cartoon character lanterns.  It is the time of the year where families reunite to strengthen the family bonds :)

According to the legend, during the Yuan dynasty, China was ruled by the Mongolian people. Leaders from the preceding Sung dynasty were unhappy at submitting to foreign rule, and set out to coordinate the rebellion without it being discovered. The leaders of the rebellion, knowing that the Moon Festival was drawing near, ordered the making of special cakes. Backed into each moon cake was a message with the outline of the attack. On the night of the Moon Festival, the rebels successfully attacked and overthrew the government. What followed was the establishment of the Ming dynasty. Today, moon cakes are eaten to commemorate this legend.

Ah moon cakes.  They are another must have for this festival.  The outer golden brown crust, the inner paste consisting of various flavors, ranging from lotus to coffee and so on activates my salivary glands just by thinking of it. 

According to my mummy, I have been demanding for moon cakes ever since i was created hehe.  She could eat up a whole box a day.  Oops sorry mummy for causing you to have this non stop desire for moon cakes.  Its considered as my favorite food and hence, every year, i would consume to like around ten moon cakes per festival.  That explains the extra fat i have every year. :(  and it never goes away, it never does. 

And with that I conclude this post with a picture of my favorite food,

*drools at the sight of it :)

XOXO

P.S. I still love ice cream :)

MGS Graduation Night 2012

It was a really awesome and wonderful night with a lot of gorgeous people! :) Being one of the crew members made me feel special and all :) Though it wasn't really that perfect but seeing the smiles on their faces, it's all forgotten.  Though the candle went out, the other one still stayed so i should just let it go and not be sad over it no?  and to my friends who comforted me, thank you so much! :)

Though we might disagree on some things when we planned, last night made all our effort pay off.  It was indeed a memorable and indelible night.  Congratulations to the crew members! :)

Managed to snap some shots with the few gorgeous and awesome people :)

The pretty and awesome makeup artist ♥

The friend who 'kills' me with the snake ><

The beautiful senior and friend, Carmen ♥ 

Mingyan ♥

Roxy's clone? waiteng ♥

The awesome and pretty jingee ♥ 

That concludes this post :)

XOXO

Courage

Courage is seriously needed here.  I seriously do NOT understand why life has to be so painful at times.  I seriously do NOT understand why things must be so hard.  At times, I tend to wonder, why am i wasting so much time thinking of useless stuff when there's so much else to do?  Don't let our feelings dictate to us?

I just can't stop all this stupidity :( I just can't, no matter how hard i tried.  I really want to do it but, at the end of the day, i failed. I tell myself theres always tomorrow, but i know i don't , time flies and soon, we would have to part and all would be gone.

And these days, i feel like I'm not working hard enough.  Have i really given up?  Have i really stopped working as hard as i did?  Have i been lulled into a sense of complacency?  People say, to achieve greater heights and succeed in life, we would have to first change ourselves.

The choice is mine.  I chose it like so many times, its time to really move on to the other, and be courageous and stop fantasizing and come back to reality.  Its time to stop waiting like some crazy damsel in distress.  Joyi, you are not as weak as Rose okay, you do not need Percy to come sweep you off the ground.  You can survive without Percy or whoever :)  But of course you need plenty of friends to prevent villains like Crouch from bullying you no? hehe

A very big congrats to fungxin :)  I really am happy for you, dear. I really am :)  Love you <3

I just have to gain enough courage and blast it all out instead of keeping it all in heheh.

XOXO

Confused

People say it is easy to love and i totally agree with that.  However, there are several complications to love.  Love isn't something which can be expressed easily.  Every time i come across dramas or even in reality, i can only conclude that love is both beautiful and complicated as well.

Sometimes expressing something would hurt some other people and even yourself, no?  What if turns out to be all wrong?  What if it ends up real bad? I seriously don't know what is happening to me today ><

After having heart to heart talks with people i always have this moment to reflect on myself and now i seriously am confused.  Yes i admit i am a perfectionist maybe?  I tend to want everything to go my way, and when it doesn't i blame myself and stuff like that.

Feeling insecure doesn't help.  It actually worsens stuff and i'd be like down in the dumps.  Sometimes  have to ponder, think, reflect and consider if this road I am taking will lead me to the right path or will it mislead me to some path filled with holes and would i end up getting hurt?

The past should be taken as a lesson people say.  What if the past repeats itself?  What if it ends up like how it did in the past?  I can't stand another time of shock or sadness.  It took such a long time to heal, way too long.  I can't.  Joyi you can't.

It might be just a come and go thing so I should probably not care about it now?  Gahh this feeling sucks.  Coming to my friend's case, i can only support you all the way and encourage you to go for it :) It is not impossible okay, since you guys are so close and all.  I am seriously happy for you two.  Make things work, please.  I don't mind you talking about him all day to me, it is seriously better than ahemm now, okay. 

Love you always okay? <3 Hmm coming to advices, i don't walk the talk.  I ask people to overcome their problems like it is so easy, though when it comes to me, it takes forever and i repeat, forever.  This feeling of mine should last a short while, i hope?  and if the condition persists?  I don't want to think about it.

Joyi, think right and rationally before you do anything, no harm done now :)  Just try to hold everything back first and yes, think again.  Let time and fate decide.  Ahh, why do i always say that to myself, but thats the only right thing i can think of now ahhh. it totally contradicts the top message >< tiffany alvord's songs are bringing everything back to me.  I shall leave this blog FAST! *runs

XOXOXO

Surprises

I love surprises <3 I love surprise birthday parties, i love surprise proposals, when the bride doesn't see it coming, i love surprise gifts given for absolutely no reason at all and just for a sign of appreciation.  I love these type of surprises. 

And totally not the bad ones.  I absolutely hate those sudden out of nowhere fights or weird surprises.  And exam results.  I can't seem to be able to know how to actually react when it comes to these.  Any ideas anyone?

XOXO

P.S. BEWARE AS THIS VIDEO CONTAINS LOTS OF LAUGHTER AND WEIRD LANGUAGE.  ONLY LISTEN TO IT IF YOU ARE READY FOR SOME RANDOMNESS! 

AND LOTS OF LAUGHTER!

XD

Happy Birthday! <3

And Happy 55th Birthday to my beloved country, Malaysia!

XOXO

Living in the present

Let bygones be bygones.  That's what people usually say.  And I am pretty sure that usually saying stuff is easier than actually putting them into actions, agree?  So yeah moving on is actually a tough action to do without looking back.  We tend to look back and regret, but we are just wasting our precious time.

As young and restless teens with our curiosity easily aroused we tend to cling on to new things and wonder why this happens since everything is quite new to us.  We tend to waste our times on issues like am i invisible, i would really hope you appreciated me and all those stuff.

Besides we also have hormonal changes and mood swings all the time which totally destroys our days right?  However these days i am feeling really good :) i think i finally did it without even needing any effort.  I used to over think and spend so much time on all my problems until that one incident the other day, i realized the power of true friendship :)

The moment when people show random acts of kindness really is awesome.  Though sometimes friends annoy you but they play their role pretty damn well in times of need.  And if only i really know how to express my feelings in a proper way, I would never have wasted time thinking cause i feel superbly fine noww XD

I can't express how grateful i am to have a bunch of awesome friends who's going to support me when i am down and all.  The things they did were beyond great and awesome.  I will never forget what they did and said to me.

And and during the holidays i really loved how you cared and all <3 like it was such a random text and you are seriously an awesome friend!  Your text made my day seriously. ;)

Friends are a bunch of people who would laugh at you when you do something silly and comfort you when you are down.  And my oral exam was yesterday and yeah i did get nervous and all and i don't blame you guys for laughing when i dropped the paste.  Accidents do happen okay >< especially with a clumsy and accident prone girl like me :P

Love you all to the most, and loving my present <3

XOXO

Forever

Forever is a word too strong to be used.  Nothing lasts forever people say. Today finally i realized what it meant.  The feeling when you are about to lose everything you once loved everything you once took granted of.  And yes i said about to lose which means i still have it and i will never let it go no matter what happens

The feeling where you feel you have never loved what you have until now.  I really love everything i now have.  I always have and always will.  Please don't leave me.  I can't bear to think of it.  I shall be optimistic and all and yes i know my family and i can overcome this crisis of ours.

Each and everyone of us has our own worries and all.  Now i truly understand school stuff and those silly puppy love of teens aren't that important in life.  So what if one broke up or got hurt? We can always find someone better.  But... now this feeling i have is like a thousand times worse.  I feel so useless now that i couldn't help my parents overcome this huge problem of theirs

I shall just support them mentally i guess.  I must stay strong and not make them worry about me either. I am sure nothing huge will happen.. i hope.

Happiness lasts forever if you know how to smile when theres rain and learn to laugh when theres sun. :)

Be optimistic and stay strong, joyi.  Thats all you can do now...

XOXO

Immune

Let's start with the definition: Not affected by a given influence, unresponsive.

Thats what I've been this last few days.  Unresponsive.  It feels really weird when there is this expected feeling but its not strong at all or maybe it doesn't exist even.  I don't know if i am immune to it or just felt like its no use worrying about stuff like that.

Its complicated and difficult to adapt to this new feelings of mine which is of course no feeling at all omg why am i sounding like i want to have this huge reaction? lol cause i don't feel right not being my usual self.  anyway i hope things go the right way :)

Im sure most of you would not understand what i am saying here but its okay...

XOXO

First Vlog ♥

Hey guys today i am going to try vlogging! I might sound weird and all as its just a random and 'for fun' thing so please don't judge thank you 

Thats it i guess. Love you guys ♥

P.S. I might try a better one next time when i have something to say lol

XOXO

Our Hero, Dato Lee Chong Wei ♥♥♥

August 5th is indeed a very memorable day for us, Malaysians.  The day where all of us unite to support our champion and hero, the finest badminton player we know, the one and only Dato Lee Chong Wei.

Despite the injury and not playing for months, he played the match so well in the finals of the London Olympics 2012.

No other Malaysian had been able to achieve such achievements before and he gives all of us such huge inspiration.  We must not give up no matter what life hands us.  We shall strive and do our very best in everything we venture in, whether in academics or sports.

This match was indeed a very exciting and interesting one.  I bet all of us were like at the edge of our seats throughout the whole game, some may be even jumping up and down, like me. :)  Especially during the last set and last point

This man united 28 million Malaysians without even speaking.

You are our hero and champion, Dato Lee Chong Wei!  Who cares if you won silver medal?  We would be glad to actually electroplate it for you ^^ You won the hearts of gold of 28 million Malaysians and people from other countries as well.  

You don't have to apologize or feel sorry or anything.  We love you for who you are.  We know you tried your best.  We are proud to have you as a Malaysian.  We are proud of YOU! 

Once again, we will always love you! 

♥ 

XOXO

Guess what?

Guess what i am gonna blog about today! Hehe. Nawww its not about the exam test that just ended :P sigh yeah my test just ended today and i am really happy.  its not like a really stressful one and the results aren't really important I hope? :/

Anyway i just really feel like blogging today :)

Okay theres this ACS MGS Alumni Reunion tomorrow which i have to go.  At 9 am ><  And till? Eleven something at night? How awesome. Lol anyway i will try to enjoy myself with my awesome friends i guess hehehe

I have really nice friends where i can tell them everything well.. not everything i guess cause to some people find my opinions really weird and all.  At times when my friends bring up my past and future, my past especially... I really feel kind of uneasy cause come on people makes mistakes and no one is perfect right?

So what if i did some really huge mistakes in the choices i made in life?  As long as i learned from it, it's okay isn't it?  Isn't that what life is all about?  To learn from our mistakes?  I admit I did have this duration where i was trying to adapt to the results of that choice i made.  So why bring it up again?  Its not really that fun and all okay.

AND it doesnt make me happy okay.  Why would i be?  I guess you don't really know the whole story after all.  Anyway that only applies to some of them :)  But friends can be really sweet at times too! :)

Love you guys <3

XOXO

Apologize

Dear friends,

First and foremost, I didn't know you guys were interested in accessories :/ I was quite surprised but actually you can't blame me for not asking you about it >< cause usually when i buy you guys don't give any reaction even :o and today, I am really surprised.

Secondly, I did tell eewen theres a sale... >< and she didn't ask about it so i kind of ignored.

I will tell you guys about it next time kay. :/ I hope next time doesn't come though.  I am officially broke! :( Blame myself for being such a shopaholic sighh.  I will try to stop?  Thats what i said few weeks ago sigh

Oh and i skipped lunch :o gonna grab a snack or something now :)

XOXO

Website:
Pretty stuff :)
P.S. Theres a raya sale going on :)

A reply

To this special someone,

You might be feeling really down these days and i have failed to notice it.  I am really sorry for not paying more attention to you.  I didn't realize it would cause so much pain and hurt.  I am really really sorry.

In life, people are often like this.  And i am a normal human being.
We all tend to appreciate other people more than the ones who care the most about you.  i am not excluded.  I know how you feel.  All this round about thing should end as fast as possible don't you think?  Thats my idea and so i feel that i am going to make things as crystal clear as possible.  Theres no use being stuck in the same position for such a long time.  Its just very time consuming...   

I might not have said it or showed it in any way possible, but i want to tell you that all this while you were a part of my life and will always be.  Maybe i have mistreated you and had been really super duper mean.  I truly apologize from the core of my heart. 

I am really sorry if i don't share much with you or what, but its all too embarrassing to be said.
And just don't feel too sad or what kay.  sorry ><

XOXO

Cheah Ming Yan :)

Beauty, also called prettiness, or loveliness, is a characteristic of a person, animal, place, object, or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure or satisfaction.  An "ideal beauty" is an entity which is admired, or possesses features widely attributed to beauty in a particular culture, for perfection.


The characterization of a person as “beautiful”, whether on an individual basis or by community consensus, is often based on some combination of inner beauty, which includes psychological factors like personality, intelligence, grace, politeness, charisma, integrity, congruence and elegance, and outer beauty (i.e. physical attractiveness) which includes physical attributes which are valued on a very subjective basis. <<<-- see that?


Everyone is pretty inside and out cause thats what we are born with :)  And YOU are included.  Those people considered ugly are those people who have ugly hearts and black ones :P  And I'm very sure you don't.  So why not admit you are pretty?  We all know it is a fact right?  


Inner beauty comes from within.  It always outshines outer beauty :)  Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.  We usually limit our point of thinking to the fact that we are not but actually all of us are...


So lets be grateful for what we are born with and try to sharpen our inner beauty which can always be changed into a better one without the need to carry out surgeries of any kind :)  


And this does not apply on you only, it applies to every other human being in this world. :)

(P.S. you should be grateful I made this for you at this time of the day. So just admit that you are in fact pretty and beautiful) 

See? Beauty is shining everywhere! XD

XOXO


The first two paragraphs are adapted from a source. :)