Confused

People say it is easy to love and i totally agree with that.  However, there are several complications to love.  Love isn't something which can be expressed easily.  Every time i come across dramas or even in reality, i can only conclude that love is both beautiful and complicated as well.

Sometimes expressing something would hurt some other people and even yourself, no?  What if turns out to be all wrong?  What if it ends up real bad? I seriously don't know what is happening to me today ><

After having heart to heart talks with people i always have this moment to reflect on myself and now i seriously am confused.  Yes i admit i am a perfectionist maybe?  I tend to want everything to go my way, and when it doesn't i blame myself and stuff like that.

Feeling insecure doesn't help.  It actually worsens stuff and i'd be like down in the dumps.  Sometimes  have to ponder, think, reflect and consider if this road I am taking will lead me to the right path or will it mislead me to some path filled with holes and would i end up getting hurt?

The past should be taken as a lesson people say.  What if the past repeats itself?  What if it ends up like how it did in the past?  I can't stand another time of shock or sadness.  It took such a long time to heal, way too long.  I can't.  Joyi you can't.

It might be just a come and go thing so I should probably not care about it now?  Gahh this feeling sucks.  Coming to my friend's case, i can only support you all the way and encourage you to go for it :) It is not impossible okay, since you guys are so close and all.  I am seriously happy for you two.  Make things work, please.  I don't mind you talking about him all day to me, it is seriously better than ahemm now, okay. 

Love you always okay? <3 Hmm coming to advices, i don't walk the talk.  I ask people to overcome their problems like it is so easy, though when it comes to me, it takes forever and i repeat, forever.  This feeling of mine should last a short while, i hope?  and if the condition persists?  I don't want to think about it.

Joyi, think right and rationally before you do anything, no harm done now :)  Just try to hold everything back first and yes, think again.  Let time and fate decide.  Ahh, why do i always say that to myself, but thats the only right thing i can think of now ahhh. it totally contradicts the top message >< tiffany alvord's songs are bringing everything back to me.  I shall leave this blog FAST! *runs

XOXOXO