Courage

Courage is seriously needed here.  I seriously do NOT understand why life has to be so painful at times.  I seriously do NOT understand why things must be so hard.  At times, I tend to wonder, why am i wasting so much time thinking of useless stuff when there's so much else to do?  Don't let our feelings dictate to us?

I just can't stop all this stupidity :( I just can't, no matter how hard i tried.  I really want to do it but, at the end of the day, i failed. I tell myself theres always tomorrow, but i know i don't , time flies and soon, we would have to part and all would be gone.

And these days, i feel like I'm not working hard enough.  Have i really given up?  Have i really stopped working as hard as i did?  Have i been lulled into a sense of complacency?  People say, to achieve greater heights and succeed in life, we would have to first change ourselves.

The choice is mine.  I chose it like so many times, its time to really move on to the other, and be courageous and stop fantasizing and come back to reality.  Its time to stop waiting like some crazy damsel in distress.  Joyi, you are not as weak as Rose okay, you do not need Percy to come sweep you off the ground.  You can survive without Percy or whoever :)  But of course you need plenty of friends to prevent villains like Crouch from bullying you no? hehe

A very big congrats to fungxin :)  I really am happy for you, dear. I really am :)  Love you <3

I just have to gain enough courage and blast it all out instead of keeping it all in heheh.

XOXO