Stupidity

I cannot believe what I did during the trip the other day, the thoughts, the happiness, the joy, the fun.  When it came to an end, I had this feeling to never let go and was kind of down and all but after knowing that person better, I feel this is all wrong but yet I just let it be as it is without clearing things up.

What am i doing? Is this what they call the nature of human beings or is it just me?  Is this what they call stupidity?  It flows in my veins and it kills me most of the times but i just allow it to.  Should I stop it all or should I let it as it is? 

Sometimes I feel that it is all wrong like totally but yet i still continue to see what happens.  Curiosity kills.  I really want to know what would happen if i make those choices and what would not happen if i didnt.  I think i would just go with the flow and see how things turn out.

I used to think the quote, 'nothing is impossible' is just something used to motivate people but some things ARE impossible.  I keep thinking that it was impossible to keep in touch until after the trip and all those things that happened i realised it's possible alright.

Now i am at a loss.  It will all clear out soon I am sure :) So I will let it as it is now. Go with the flow, they say, and hence i will.

XOXO

Birthday week (Part 2) ~ Short trip to Kuala Lumpur

Planned to have Eewen over for a sleepover but plan failed. :( Mum woke me up on the morning just to ask me to join her on this short trip to Kuala Lumpur, the capital of Malaysia. She booked the hotel and everything and and finally we are staying at The Gardens Residences after so longgg. I missed it so much. Its like so convenient, when I'm tired i can go and rest, when i feel like looking at pretty new stuff i can go downstairs and shop! :)

Dad has some work to do so we ended up in Pavilion. We looked around and landed ourselves in Tony Roma's steak house. I ordered the Filet Medallions while mum ordered the Steak & Wild Mushroom Flatbread and sis, oh well, something like mine but with extra Salmon Picatta :) We were like sooo full after this meal. And decided to go walk around, saw plenty of stuff but didn't buy any, guess my shopaholic disease receded :P

In Tony Roma's

Dad picked us up and checked in at the hotel and we went up for a short rest and showered and all. :) Thennnn dad said he has to go out again to meet some people so mummy decided to walk around The Gardens Mall. Saw this really pretty dresssss but too bad its too big for me :( It has this really beautiful shade of blue with a very nice design, gosh just talking about it makes me feel down.

In the room in the apartment :)

Then after an hour of aimless walking, mum decided to go eat again lol. This time at a Korean cuisine restaurant. I was still full from lunch, but someone like me, obviously couldn't resist food XD Returned to the hotel after a day of Food Marathon, BUT its not over yet :P

At GoGung Korean Cuisine :)

On thursday, woke up and went down for brunch at My Toast at 11pm. Ate nasi lemak and Kaya Butter Toast. LOL this was actually unintentional, Dad ordered the nasi lemak and offered me some and it was too delicious i ended up eating the whole plate of it as Dad said he was still full from the previous breakfast he had with one of his employees.

Walked to Mid Valley and window shopped and realized its 2pm already so mum suggested to have lunch at this Taiwanese cuisine before going back to Ipoh. So we ate again. Yummmyyy! hehehe then we walked around to help with digestion then, saw this GongCha shop and dad asked me if i wanted to try, of course i do! So drank another cup of Gongcha. -.- GongCha is almost like Chatime, i don't really feel any difference, but i have yet to try other flavors of drinks there though :)

Finally Mum said the Food Marathon is over and we should head back to Ipoh, and hence this marks the end of the short trip to Kuala Lumpur :)

XOXO

Birthday week :) (Part 1)

I am officially turning sixteen soon :) like in umm two days. So what have i been doing since i haven't blogged for ages. I have been traveling, a lot this year. Time flies so here i am after ages blogging. I haven't really uploaded all the pictures from the recent travels since there was two cameras and two phones used to capture all the memories.

So what am i going to update today? As i said my birthday is coming, and and its on 21st December, the rumored DOOMSDAY. So how am i celebrating, and how do i feel? I can't deny for sure it wouldn't happen, but I'm not afraid of it.  If it happens, it will. So why waste life and time that worrying what might happen? It might happen on any day so are we going to live life in fear for the rest of our lives?

Anyway back to what happened this week.  Spent my Tuesday afternoon with Eewei. Watched this awesome cartoon movie, The Rise of the Guardians.  It is really not a kiddo thing, it is like real and 3D.  Movie summary: It is about the guardians ( Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, Sandman, Tooth Fairy and Jack Frost) trying to save the children from the legendary Boogeyman.  It has a very good storyline. and Jack Frost is super duper handsome in it. I am not going to blog much about the movie cause I'm not a very literature-inclined person, with all the themes, moral values all. XD

After the movie, we had lunch in a Chinese place, it was reasonable and the food was up to standard too :) Went home after a long day and tried to get as much beauty sleep as possible.

Since today is just Wednesday, I am going to update about today and tomorrow in my next blogpost :)

18/12/2012

XOXO

My little Jo Wei :)

Dearest Jo Wei,

Words can hardly describe how awesome you are.  How important you are to me, how precious.  You are like my soulmate, there is no need for words for you to understand me, to know what I'm thinking, it's almost like.. telepathy.

You play an important role in my life, moulding me into who I am today.  You are almost like my mirror, seeing myself in you partially, though i admit i can be quite crazy and hyper sometimes :P

Anyway, I bet you know how i feel.  There is no need for me to say more, if you do want me to say more, i can tell you everyday, I love you. ❤

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! :)

❤ XOXO ❤

Tree of dreams

So its the start of the annual year end holidays. Which brings the meaning, my form four life has ended, and i would be moving on to something more serious and important next year, the scary SPM.  So anyway i just watched this inspirational video on YouTube and wish to share it with you guys :) Enjoy.

XOXO

In a state of shock

Okay, when i said i no longer care, that's just to protect myself from getting hurt.  And i finally did it until... ugh, why can't things go as planned?  I just hate to have my plans changed, and now?  It has returned to the initial state which i hope to have erased.  I can't believe what i saw this morning, and it is definitely not my aim to wake up to see such things.

Reality hurts, that's what i hear from plenty of people.  I should have just continued dreaming in dreamland rather than seeing what i saw.  I can't believe i missed out again and now what i see is... ugh i can't even bring myself to say what i saw.

I just don't understand what goes about in your head, i would really like to know though.  This has brought me nowhere and i am still getting frustrated for no reason.  If you were to know, i bet you think i am really crazy like how i really am. :) I may have did certain things wrongly in the past but now, the blame is no longer on me.  I can't believe i am so stupid to ever blame myself for it.

Wake up joyi.  Yes i should.  I used to wonder all sorts of possibilities but now, they are no longer of use.  Its all over, another nightmare of mine is gone, well i hope.  Thoughts and images has been haunting me day and night, night and day.  Just last night, i had the weirdest dream ever.  I can't believe i dreamt of it againnnn.  Please would you stop haunting me and let me sleep and carry out my daily activities in peace.  Maybe what i wish now would make me regret, just please if you do not care, just stop haunting me.

Sometimes, i wonder if i have the so called 'true confidence' when it comes to these type of things, well i don't think so.  Though i have people who care for me more than i ever wanted, and i should feel grateful, i must admit i am just another greedy person. I tend to care for those who cares for me and those who don't, especially those who don't and end up feeling all hurt and well, thats who i am.  I am no different than you.  I am a normal person after all, no superwoman.  Though i am trying really hard to overcome these feelings of mine, there are days like today when i realize the truth once more and over think again.

I should probably stop thinking about it and make people who care get all worried about what happened.  Nothing did :)  That's what happened. Nothing, and here i am getting all tensed up when nothing happened.  How stupid of me. Pfft.  Well, busy day ahead of me, and i hope to get through today with a smile of my face :) and heal as quickly as possible well, i feel so much better blogging all this out.

So, tata.

XOXO

Miss MGS

It has been a year, officially.  2nd November 2011, a memorable day indeed.  Though hectic, it was really exciting and overwhelming.  Running around, changing as fast as possible without a changing room and my assistants, Fungxin and Kamen were so helpful and awesome!  The outfit search, the rehearsals for my performance, the help i got from various people, the support from my friends, ah its all still vivid in my mind.

Let's start from where it all started.  After PMR, my friends and i were given the list of competitions and the highlight of the whole after PMR activities was of course the annual Miss MGS competition.  I like everyone else, anticipated for it and was wondering who'd be chosen to represent my class, 3 Hornbill.

And suddenly i saw my name on the whiteboard, and they all agreed so i joined since it might be fun and i could gain new experience :)  I told my ballet teacher about it and she was so sweet to help me think up a dance for my talent time competition.  She even lent me some accessories to go with my dress.

Next, time for the gown search or dress search.  So, the theme was Glamour and Glitter.  Visited a few boutiques round town and tried several gowns, and finally found one.  Its a purple one, just plain purple.

Finally the day arrived, and i arrived to school late haha.  Was nervous the night before but managed to get a few hours of beauty sleep though :) Went into class and was greeted by my excited friends who made me more nervous haha.  I brought like two huge bags to place my tutu and also my gown and shoes, it was indeed a tough one to carry it into school.

The feeling on stage, and the everlasting cheers from the crowd, especially 3 Hornbill made me feel overwhelmed and forget all my nervousness.  Without them, I would never have made it by myself.  Being crowned and announced as Miss MGS 2011, was more than what i wanted, which was experience.  This whole event changed my point of view on life, and my life even.  I have been yet moulded into a better person.

It has been a year now, and the time of the year arrived just two days ago.  I was invited to crown the new Miss MGS 2012, Melissa Tan.  Witnessing the whole event at the side of the stage brought all the memories back to me.  Time flies.  And now i have learned another value, Cherish time well :)

Thank you jowei for making this vid for me <3

XOXO