So, well I decided to start this chain of all my thoughts and resolutions. More to thoughts. You know, how girls being girls, think a lot more; sometimes too much and hence we resolve to letting it all out. For instance, I am not only sharing my thoughts, through this post I can also let it all out and have you (blog and readers) be here with me. :)
This post is a bit on the down side so if you are really happy today, come back tomorrow. :) Better not let me bring you down. Believe me, it's not really a moody post. Just some random thoughts.
Just on Tuesday, it was my late granduncle's birthday. To be really honest, I really really miss him a lot. Life is really fragile. One day you see him and the next moment you see him suffering on the hospital bed, trying to gasp for air. It was really heart rending. Just a few months ago, he was still fetching me to extra ballet classes and tuition. He's been there my whole life, since birth. He was my grandpa (well don't get too confused; he's my grandma's elder brother /but I treat him like my own grandpa just because.. its pretty complicated/).
'Jo Yi, today your 'Kau Kung' has been admitted to the hospital cause he had fever few days already. Maybe tonight we visit him la ok? He should be up and about soon,'
'Jo Yi, 'Kau Kung' will be back to work on Monday. He just called.'
And I didn't think that it would be so quick. Things would escalate so fast. I never knew. That night, when we arrived at the hospital, I felt teary. I was afraid. When the lift doors opened, it confirmed my fears. Everyone's eyes were burning red; effects from continuous crying. As I approached him, he was there, struggling, hanging onto his life, tears started pouring down my face like an uncontrollable tap. He was having cramps. I tried holding it in, I tried staying strong just so the other family members didn't have to feel sad for me; and themselves. The doctors haven't arrived. It's been a few hours. Why aren't they efficient? Don't they realise that someone's life is at stake right now? Or are they too used to people getting sick?
My grandmother was launched into tremendous despair. You know how depressing it is to feel so sad inside and yet you see your other family members crying so much? So we decided to go home. Once at home, we got THE CALL. He was declared to have left us all. :'(
Believe me, I understand how it feels to lose someone. Losing someone is really heart breaking. Especially for eternity. Through time, we will realise we are only left with memories. As the saying goes, though we are far apart, you are always in my heart! ❤
P.S 'Kau Kung' is used to refer our grandmother's (maternal) brother in Cantonese.
Hence, my resolution today is that I must cherish and treasure all my dearest family and friends. I love you all! ❤
Xoxo
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