home
i need distractions to stop myself thinking about home
thinking of what everyone is doing
thinking of the people i love
of the food i miss
i tried watching television series
to stop myself from bawling my eyes out
i tried reading books
to bring my mind to a land far away from home
i tried working out
to focus only on the fatigue and weariness
i wake up
each day
doing things that don't require thinking
but eventually my mind floats to where the heart belongs
i need to stop that now
cause this is home for the next four years
which is a pretty short
and yet long time
xx
welcome to level one of homesickness
