i miss the banters we used to have, best friend.
i miss the times we used to argue on things and agree to disagree.
i miss being constantly stimulated and kept on edge about things.
all those times pale in comparison to all the conversations i have now.
it makes me realise how much i hate idle talks of 'how was meals' and 'what are you doing'.
i wish i have replies in paragraphs instead of the typical 'oh okay' or 'hahaha'.
i wish i could still honestly speak out how i feel.
i wish i could complain all day and never loathe myself for doing so.
but they are not you.
and you are not here.
not anymore.
but that's okay!
i just hope i can stop thinking of running to someone to rant or talk about my overwhelming feelings and realising you're no longer there.
x
