losing someone who was once a major part of your life sucks, especially when it happened for no good enough reason or just without proper closure.
one day, you just find yourself at this crossroads of 'are we still friends?' or 'do i brush it off and continue to text you? will that just seem too desperate?'
next, you read into your most recent messages and figure out what went wrong
boom! you read too much into the lines, overthink and get all down.
it doesn't just stop there;
with minds like mine;
minds that are uniquely carved in the sense that we can never stop asking why;
it goes on to bother your other relationships with people as well.
post-lost;
you constantly find yourself habituating in this fear;
fear that someone else who's equally as important might walk away too.
then, you try to conceal your emotions, because you can't afford to lose anyone else.
you certainly don't want to be a party pooper; the one exhibiting negative vibes all the time right? people don't like that
they would much rather surround themselves with Sally, the smiles and sunshine.
what happens after this?
do you ever heal?
will i ever heal?
x
i miss you, old friend.
